A number of people, my best friends mother, my boyfriends mother, my mother and my own Goober have each expressed a concern about my work path. Asking questions like "Tiff do you really want this?" Or "Are your hands even strong enough to handle this?" I don't understand. Why can't people be positive about this? Goober and The Mom Both think I don't really want this. That ill eventually will quit. How am I to feel about this?
Granted, I understand in a year. I hadn't been wanting this forever, like I have other things. But what else is there? I've wanted to be a writer. But that's not happening. Because I don't even have a story. I don't have something I know will make money. I just have passion for it. And my parents always talk about how making money is important. I just don't know what to do. And I'm so mad at people for putting doubt in me.
I was happy dammit! I saw a future! A quick way to finish school and have a job that I could enjoy. And now? Now I'm feelings unsure of the plan. How dare they? How dare they take this from me! I really could care less about what I want to do anymore. I know what I want to do cant happen. So now I'm focused on money. Money is everything right now.
Screw passions. And what I'm good at. It's impossible. I really do hate everyone right now. And it's making me depressed.
I'm done.
Cutting this post short. Won't be writing again until I figure something out!!!!!!!!!!!!
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